When Ryan & I first got married, I used to get up every morning and work out with Denise Austin on Lifetime. Immediately following was Designing Women. Dixie Carter (Julia Sugerbaker) was my favorite character on the show. She was classy, intelligent, beautiful, kind, and funny.
I'm finding out now that she has died that she was that in real life, too, and more. I love one of the quotes that Fox News played tonight, (from memory--I can't find the exact quote online) "People won't regret not attending one more meeting, but they will regret not spending every moment with their children."
I tend to get caught up in the brain suckers (TV) and time suckers (computer) and just all the things I 'HAVE" to do. I start the day with good intentions, but end up hating myself at the end of the day as my mind runs through all the things I could have said/done to be a better mom. I can justify everything I do, of course--papers have to be graded on time and all the twitter/facebook/blogging hopefully will lead to more freedom for me to be Mom. But what am I sacrificing in the process?
I don't really understand myself, for I want to do what is right, but I don't do it. Instead, I do what I hate. Romans 7:15
I suppose if Paul couldn't get it right, I shouldn't be too disappointed that I'm not perfect...but I sure do try hard.